dark side

im posting this against my better jugdement. a close friend of mine said never to share this kinda stuff with anybody...."they wont understand" he said. well, im hoping that most of u will be mature enough not to jugde me when looking at this. my friend went to art skuu, and he told me that his professors were always saying that art has to come from somewhere..each piece has a meaning and that nothing is created "just because". we both new this was BS, because i sometimes pick up my pencil..not happy, sad or in any particular mood..... i just want to draw. and u sometimes dont know what will materialize.

this is very true, in this case i was not angry or mad at my girl and wanted to kill sombody. i just wanted to draw...and this is what came out. normally i have a script i draw from, but not this time. i was talking to another friend of mine recently and she is a song writer, i told her that i wrote as well, but that most of it is not happy, and more about heartbreak....she said "me too" most of my writting is more on the edgier side. i told her im not a dark and angry person, its just more fun to do the darker stuff. i believe writing or drawing sunshine and blue skies is very hard, because its all been done before and it all sounds fake and more like a fairytail....well, thats my two sence.

at the top left: i've never drawn anything without stopping before..so i tried to keep my hand moving and not stopping to see what happens. i like it, its fun and kinda tricky

the drawing connected to the skull three drawings down on the left: most ppl would say that i have a very clean line, and i agree. i dont like to leave sketch lines on my drawings and erase any unintentional lines...so i was like i've never just scribbled over something cause then it wont be pretty anymore...so i when i was done drawing the face, i just drew over it with a bunch of lines..at first it hurt, but in the end, it was worth it and i love just letting go.

the little girl holding the head came from a random plot i thought of. poor little girl loved her father too much...and so so did he to her...but in a very different way...one day she couldnt take her fatehrs "love" anymore and ended it...but she still couldnt let him go...she loved him too much....ask me where i came up with this??? who knows.

i used a marker to sketch all of these in hopes that i can conquer a fear of my perfect line. everything i draw is too perfect, i draw much like an inker would ink. mostly because i also ink, i taught my bro how to ink, and now he inks my stuff. so i thought i might be stuck in a rutt, and to prevent this, i wanted to draw with no fear, just attact the page and not be affraid of the results. i found this to be very useful and i encourage all artist to try this to conquer the fear of "OMG, what if someone sees this and they dont like it cause i messed up"!!!


all the pencil lines in the center are thumb nails for a beauty and the beast cover i did for jaycompany comics.

this is in my personal sketchbook, and i have more just like it. lets see how this is recieved and i will determine if i will post things like this again.